Sunday, May 10, 2015

Trials in our lives and Infertility

As some of you know we have been trying for a year and a half to get pregnant.  Unfortunately, we have had no luck.  I was hoping that after my surgery in November to remove a cyst and polyp it would be an instant fix but I was wrong. It has been a hard trial to go through but I know in the end we will be stronger and it will be all worth it. We decided after a few months after the surgery and trying again to go visit a fertility clinic.  Luckily, there is one pretty close to us so we went and saw them and found out we have unexplained infertility.  We are both healthy and doing well.  It was a neat experience to hear all the ways that doctors can help people out with infertility.  After twelve vials of blood and almost fainting we were able to be given the all clear to start a treatment the following months called IUI, which is basically insemination with added hormones to help make things move along. 

After a cycle and getting blood work and an ultrasound we had to put a hold on the IUI.  During the ultrasound they found another cyst on my left ovary that the fertility doctor was a little concerned about. She referred me to a pelvic specialist and OBGYN that does these things. We set up an appointment in April and he was a little concerned to but wanted to wait three weeks for another ultrasound to see if it changed in anyway.  So May 8th I went in for an ultrasound and unfortunately the cyst is still there and has grown a little.  I also have had pain off and on and at times it is very painful.  So, we are headed back to the doctor on May 18th to decide if surgery is needed and if so we head back to the hospital on May 27th.  Hopefully, this is the last surgery and will be the end of it. 

It has been a struggle not having children of my own but I was reminded by kind friends that I have been blessed to be a mothering type to the sweet toddlers I teach daily. Also, that my time will come and it is all in the Lord's hand and he is mindful of us and loves us.  

Today on Mothers Day I was reminded by a beautiful talk that we are all mothers and can be examples to others. Mothers are not perfect but they are the closest thing to godliness. It was a beautiful reminder. To all my friends that are struggling I pray for you and know your pain.  We will all be parents one day and it will be a beautiful day.  It has been a hard trial that is still going on but I know one day it will all be worth it.

 I want to thank all my wonderful examples of Mothers in my life and all those that have helped raise me.  I have had many friends moms be there for me and help me as I was growing up.  Also so blessed to have a birth mom and my mom Geri.  She is a great person inside and out and I am so blessed she adopted me and took me in as her own. Thank you for all you have taught me and all you will continue to teach me.

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